I just had to share that with everyone.

Lately I just… have been leaving the computer alone. A couple of projects I really wanted to start… well, I didn’t get approval for the go-ahead, so I’ve been a little bummed about that. I’ve got my fingers crossed for one more project… hopefully it comes through. I’ve been in such a funk as of late, with all that’s going on.. I wish I had the desire to get my life back in order. Since I lost my job at the end of February, I’ve been kind of just… floating around. I haven’t really have any motivation, or drive to do anything whatsoever. It’s horrible, and I wish I could get out of it.

So, I’ve decided, to get out of my funk, I’m going to actually force myself to do things. So on Wednesday, before my sister comes over, I’m going up to the employment services to do my resume, and then to the government building to apply for medical. After that, I’m going to pop over to the mall and collect some applications to fill out. I’m going to appeal to Zellers, which was one of my first jobs ages and ages ago, to work graveyards. I’m up all night anyways, right, so why not? And they’re always looking for graveyard workers. :? Hopefully my job search goes better than my previous ones.

Something else that I’m hoping will get me out of my funk… I have a tattoo appointment on the 30th, which I’m super excited about. I haven’t decided what I’m going to get yet… I’m thinking the top part of my sleeve, maybe something on my forearm. I’m trying to look up designs, and hopefully I’ll decide on something I like.

That video is just… awesome.

I upgraded my WordPress to the latest version… hopefully everything still looks okay. I have been up for almost 40 hours straight, and I still don’t feel even the least bit tired. This insomnia is killing me… this is, however, the last time I allow myself to play video games all night when I know I have other things to do. If I can’t sleep, I should at least be doing something productive. If I can’t get to sleep tonight, I’m going to pop a couple of Unisom tablets, have a cool shower and drown myself in chamomile and mint tea. Another thing to add to my list of “things to go to the doctor for when I finally get medical:” insomnia. Hopefully it gets better.

Right now though, I’m trying to pump myself up with Doctor’s Advocate by The Game, with a side of bass boost. Usually I would crank The Faceless or Bloodbath but I’m in a rap mood today. Strangely enough. I need to get laundry and vacuuming done, so I can at least say I accomplished something tonight. It’s too hot during the day to do anything productive (I don’t have a functioning air conditioner – so I suffer in the heat all day long), so I have to squeeze my usual routine in half the time during evening hours. Tuesday I’m going to see if I can afford a little air condtioner unit. I’m a Viking for goodness sake… arctic I can handle, heat I cannot. It rained today, and even that wasn’t enought to cool my inferno of a house down. I don’t know how I’m going to make it to the end of the summer. Not. A. Chance.

Friday night I’m spending with Amber. We’re going to watch some Gundam OO, read anime and girl bond. With me missing Vanessa, and all the drama that’s going on here… it’ll be nice to get out of the house. When I get back on Saturday, I’m going to get some more of my room cleaned up and then work on some projects for the site. Might be a new layout too, I haven’t decided yet. I’m having a bit of a creativity lapse in the graphical department… hopefully after a night with Amber, I’ll get some ideas.