Sometimes I wish Life were as simple as it was back when I was in highschool. My only responsibilities back then were to make sure my eyeliner was straight and that my homework was done on time. I didn’t have to worry about finances, work, or whether or not I would be able to afford to eat for the next week. The only really negative thing about my highschool experience was that it was a dramatic one. Being one of the only gothic teens in a redneck town tends to be full of negative experience, but once highschool was over, and those people moved on or grew up, I fimrly believed that the drama would end. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever expect to have my adult life full of more drama, than all of those five years combined. :?
It’s horrible, I hate it. If it’s not one problem with so-and-so, it’s another problem with what’s-her-face. I’m so tired of having to deal with other people’s problems. It’s all thrown on me. I’m dumped on like I’m some kind of public toilet, and it’s gotten to the point where I can’t handle anymore crap (forgive the analogy but it’s all I’ve got). My supposed best friend K has pretty much dumped me. She spends all of her time with V’s reject boyfriend, ignore my calls and my texts, skips out on plans… and then has the nerve to turn around today and tell me that she feels like she’s been replaced? :x Honestly, what the fuck is going on? I’ve tried asking her what’s wrong, what’s going on, why she’s being this way, and her only answer seems to be that she “just can’t talk to me about it now,” and she’ll “explain it all later.” It hurts me immensely that she says that, because I know for a fact that V’s reject boyfriend knows all about it. I just can’t get over the feeling that it has something to do with him. The first thing that always pops into my mind is that they’ve become intimately involved. It also hurts because later has turned into half a year.
That’s just one of the problems that is plaguing me right now. I’m going to take the high road, however, and stay out of everything. If K wants to suddenly behave this way with no explanation or reasion, fine. That’s her journey. We’ve had a good run (fourteen years), and she obviously is heading somewhere that I’m not. All I can do is keep a peaceful mind and do my own thing, and hope she’ll come around. To jump start my separation from the drama, I’m taking a vacation with my mother. She and I are going up to Prince Rupert for a week, to visit my family up there. It might be one of the last times I get to see my grandma, and I haven’t see my aunts in a long time, so I’m looking forward to it. I’m going to be taking a lot of meditative music and my journal, so I can do some soul searching and writing.
Things here have been put on hold until I return next week. The new template is still having its kinks worked out, and I was given that new project I was looking forward to, so that will be going up as well. I will be in a much better frame of creative mind when I return, so maybe there will be even a couple more projects that I’ll debut in the next month or so.
Until I get back, I will be updating my Twitter account like a mad woman (I’ll have 3G capabilities so I will be taking major advantage of it), so follow me if you’re interested. 
See you all in a week!
It took 2 1/2 hours, and it was rather excrutiating (on the sternum areas)… but my goodness, worth every second of pain. I was so pleased with the design, and she’s such a great artist. I’m probably going to get her to design my koi fish for my arm sleeve… which might be the next tattoo I intend on getting. That won’t be for a while though, considering this burnt a little bit of a hole into my pocket.
