For those who haven’t noticed yet, I’ve put up the new layout! This time I decided to use my favourite woman on Earth, Emilie Autumn. She’s been a big source of inspiration in my life lately, and the image was too beautiful to resist. I’m also working on adding some pages to the Goodies page, as well as updating and changing around the personal content. Somethings are outdated and need some freshening up. Also, I want to plug In Obscuro. Nela’s tutorials are excellent, and have helped me out a lot. Not to mention, her artwork is incredibly beautiful.

Things have been going well lately. Work has been as hectic as ever, thanks to the management switching over, half the crew not showing up to work and the freight issues we’re having. Thankfully, I’ve been able to relax my sore muscles the last couple of days and actually take a moment to breathe. I was feeling energetic this morning, so David and I went shopping. We ended up popping into the Magic card store (he bought some new duel decks for himself), the book store (I bought volumes four, five and six of Death Note by Tsugumi Ohba, Witchling by Yasmine Galenorn and the new issue of Tattoos for Women) and the Hobbit House (I bought Cunningham’s Book of Shadows by Scott Cunningham). After that, we headed to Trattoria’s for lunch, which is a cute little pasta shop a couple blocks from our house. I’m officially addicted to their citrus Italian soda. So good! After lunch, we stopped by Field’s, and I bought these cute little black capri pants with zippers on the sides, a black and red top, and a new black and purple bra. A lot of their clothes were on clearance, so it was a pretty good deal. Bargains = awesome.

It was really nice for David and I to spend the day together. We never really get to, because of our conflicted schedules. Not to mention, we’ve been having a rough time because of the infidelity incident before my birthday. I’m still having a hard time with trust, and believing he is where he says he is (when he told me the other night that he’d gone to Kyle’s and Alexis was there – my eyes just narrowed and I became hostile), but today it felt like old times. It’s was really nice, and I hope as things slowly get better, we’ll have more moments like the ones we had today. Of course it will never be like it was, but I’m hoping we can get close.

I get to start my new birth control on Sunday. I’m not very excited about this. The YAZ completely messed with my system, and aggravated my depression something fierce, so here’s to hoping that this is the last one I have to try and the disasters of before won’t happen again. I hate having a fickle body and fickle organ systems… it made it difficult for antidepressants and now it’s being difficult for birth control. Pain in my ass.

Well, I’m going to wrap this up for now. I think I’m going to take a bit of a break and watch Cloudy With A Chance of Meatballs before getting back to work on the site.

I’m so exhausted. Work has been chaotic this week, because the hour cuts have left us with a skeleton crew, at best. Last night there was four of us, the night before there was six. Of course, the last two nights have been truck nights, so I’ve been putting away up to ten skids of freight. Last night I got lucky, because Randy was with me and we managed to get it all done except one skid. Which… was a bonus, because if I’d been by myself I don’t think I would’ve gotten that far. I certainly overexerted myself, that’s for sure… my shoulders and forearms are burning from lifting, cutting and climbing on ladders, and I’m so dehydrated. Thank goodness I now have three days off, because another night of that and I’d just be dead to the world.

The good thing is that Aaron assured Randy and I that steps are being taken by management to make the changes necessary to get our crew functioning the way it’s supposed to be. Talking to Aaron… I got the feeling that they’re going to go over Jason’s head to do this and that they might even remove him as the night manager. It was kind of like… he said it without saying it. He said to not make any rash decisions, and to be patient because change was on the way. He also told me that the crew couldn’t survive without Randy and I, which… literally made me glow for the majority of the night.

Things at home have been kind of a downer. My poor little Elizabeth Bathory miscarried her kittens. I’ve been very upset about the loss… especially since I actually felt them kick inside of her belly. She has been very depressed since the incident as well, and I’ve been trying to comfort her and make sure she’s warm and cuddled. David was the one who ended up finding her with the kittens, and in a way… I’m glad it was him and not me, because I don’t think I could have handled that. He loves the cats, but to him, they’re just cats. To me, they’re my best friends.. my children, even. Those babies had all of my love from the moment I found out about them. Even if I never knew them, they were my friends. Once I can get my income tax, I’m going to take her up to the vet and get checked out and spayed. I don’t want her to ever have to go through that loss ever again. The other cats have been very supportive of her, keeping her company and whatnot. I was surprised at that, because Miss Bathory and the other cats don’t usually get along.

It’s so nice to have three days off… I should have the new layout up here later on (if I don’t fall asleep), and then I’m going to work on some of my projects. I’ve been trying to think of new things to add, but I’m coming up dry. Hopefully a little bit of relaxation time wets the muse.