So, I’m a little late, but I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and got everything they wanted. My Christmas was pretty quiet… I worked Christmas Eve, my dad picked me up in the morning, and we unwrapped presents before I promptly passed out on the couch downstairs from exhaustion. I woke up in time for dinner, but I went back to sleep soon after that.

I’m so rested now… it feels really good. Unfortunately I have to go back to work tonight. I’ve really been hating my job lately, seeing as how my boss has been taking his frustrations out on us and being a huge asshole. He actually came into the lunch room during break a couple of days ago, and told us all that our “work ethic was bullshit” and we were all a bunch of lazy, good-for-nothing slackers. Yeah, as if that would galvanize me to try and work harder? Yeah right. I was so angry I almost walked out. I was like… frothing at the mouth angry. It’s only thing to be rude, but it’s a completely different thing to paint us all with the same brush. If it doesn’t get better now that the holiday rush is over… I will be transferring to day shift, and that will be the end of that.

Thank you to everyone who commented on the new layout – I really appreciate it. I’m actually really proud of this one, because I actually did this one with little to no help. All the problems, I actually figured them out myself. Which I am taking as a good sign that my coding abilities, and my understanding of Wordpress, are getting better. To all who were wondering, the group of men featured in this layout is the Polish black metal band Behemoth, who I have taken quite a shine too. The photo is from their photoshoot for their newest album, Evangelion, and the lyrics are from that album’s first single, “Ov Fire And The Void.” If you have a moment, you should really look that song up… the music video is amazing.

I was glancing at my schedule for next week, and it looks like I am not scheduled to work on Monday, along with my usual two days. I’m really happy about this, because it will give me a chance to catch up on my housework, as well as ample time to get some work done on this site. My goal is to have my poetry site up (at least the main page), both my Filth clique and my Black Bird fanlisting re-done with new layouts and content (and I need to get some affiliation for those to spread the word) and some of the content up for the content section of this site. Excited? Very much so. I think I finally have some of my creative juices back.

Work has just been draining all of the life right out of me. With the Christmas rush beginning, I’ve been running myself ragged every single night. Unfortunately, it seems that even working to the point of collapse isn’t enough, because there’s still so much to do when 7 AM comes rolling around and I have to go home. Last week I ended up staying late three nights in a row to help with clean up, but I had to stop because it was throwing my sleep patterns off and I was sluggish when work started the next night. Even now, I’m still really tired when I wake up. Of course, I know things would go easier if some of my co-workers would pick up their end of things, but… that would be too simple, wouldn’t it? It’s rather disheartening when I’m working my ass off to get my freight done, to look up and see three or four of them just standing around chatting with each other. I get so frustrated that I actually want to throw a temper tantrum, complete with stomping my feet and screeching. My boss isn’t doing anything about it, which is even more irritating. It’s getting to the point where I’m going to morph into the One True Highlander and slay them all. FML.

I went to the doctor last Tuesday, and the test results that have come back have all been clean. I have to go and get a couple of tests redone, because there was some blood mix up at the lab and the samples they took were too old for accurate results. Which… made me very angry, because now I have to go and get more blood taken. I’ve decided I’m not going to do that until Monday morning, though. My dad is going in to get his blood work done, so I can just get a ride with him instead of walking across town to go to the hospital. Cursed hospital. I am so sick and tired of that place. Hopefully after this, I won’t have to go back for a very long time.

I’m so behind on my preparations for this Yuletide. This entire month just kind of snuck up on me. It seems that most of my presents will be given after the fact, because I can’t seem to financially recover from seven months of unemployment. I know that I eventually will, but not until January at least. It’s a good thing that I don’t have too many people to buy for – my family (I figure that this year I’ll get my dad/brother/sister something big and then something separate for my mum), David, Sean, Tamara and Kaylie. Which… is a considerably smaller list than last year.

And now, off to sleep.